Concentration

This is something I’ve been afraid of all my life. And I’m living it now. Its not that bad…although I do feel I need more. But here’s how it goes…

• Wake up -> Go training -> Train some more -> Eat Dinner -> Bath -> Watch TV-Shows -> Sleep

My entire life I lived by a moto – that every single day has to have some kind of drama. Whether its meeting a new girl, doing something cool and new, or traveling the world. Yet all I do these days is train. And I do it fucking hard. 5~6hrs a day I’m at school. The entire time training, and doing rehab. Then going back home to eat. Its a healthier lifestyle than what I’ve done previously – which was TRAIN->SARGE->HOME->SLEEP LATE.

I feel very mediocre. Not much excitement. Not much disappointment. I feel my body working in automation to go training. And to never stop training. Like its part of my life. And it doesn’t stop. I’m addicted to training. Not that I have this immense goal at the end of the road. But this deep desire to train, and to train hard.

I guess this is the lifestyle most people live by – doing the same things over and over again every single day like a routine. And adding some elements to the side for some fun. And I don’t find it that bad to be honest. But I still have this tiny desire in me to find a little time to go out and talk to that really cute munchkin.

Life is good. And I’ve changed after joining this school. Never in my life have I gone to school so consistently without a miss. Back in high-school I was late at least 2 times a week. Now I’m at school an hour before training. And 6 times a week too. This week going on 7 times a week. Had I done this at the start of last year, I always think, how much physically fitter, stronger, and more skillful I would have been.

I’m not sure whats going to come from March. I might quit school and go back to being a porn star and live in Shibuya. I’ll sarge, go play football, but wander whats the point of life. I might go travel somewhere. But that liberty does suck at times – having all the money and freedom in the world. I like being constrained to a certain degree. Then you really start to appreciate the freedom.

I’m going on a D2 tomorrow with a girl I picked-up months ago. I’m kind of excited. But not overly excited. Its a strange feeling. I think my personality’s become more professional after focusing on my football. I feel calm and at ease.

I still do want some munchkins quite badly before I grow too old. Young fresh punani brings life, I might do it for the purpose of maintaining my physical appearance and sporting performance. Young punani is like doping to keep you fueled.

By the way, after my 2month break from pickup, I’ve returned last week. For a day or two that is. But I’m so much more effective now. I’m not trying, I’m not trying to use any tricks, but I’m right there in front of the girl, confident, and sure of myself. I don’t have to try as hard, or think what technique to use. Its natural, and it works charms. And my AA for munchkin’s have gone down too – I hope to get a munchkin girlfriend – along with my 4~5hour a day training, if I can get some sex too, I think thats like adding chili beans to my hotdog.

And at least then, the only thing left on my plate would be money…or darn…money…

…I need to become the master of outsourcing, and make everybody else do my projects. I’m simply too busy building businesses, I need to use the resources thats out there to work for me…

Character Development 2013

Good habit and character produces a lifetime of good fruit. Its like a skill – once you master it, it’ll be part of you forever. This year I want to become:

1. Proactive
   Take action upon things I decide upon. NEVER BECOME REMOTE. ALWAYS BECOME ACTIVE. If I catch myself surfing youtube or playing on my phone for hours, SHUT IT OFF and go take action no matter what! ACT FIRST, THINK LATER.

2. Fun and Social
   Be a fun guy who makes friends with everyone. Keep an open mind and talk – communicate with my teammates more. Talk to the new students that’ll come in next year and make friends.
3. Experimental
   Be a Yes-Man and step into the many opportunities out there. Go take a breakdancing lesson, learn to do a backflip, play futsal, talk to that interesting stranger, try that weird looking food, etc…
4. Conscious
   Be conscious and aware of my actions. Catch myself being lazy. Imagine myself as a robot – I do everything I tell my mind to. Be that conscious and sharp. I have full control over my mind and body. Use it to produce results.
5. Organized
   Make a commitment to plan every single day (the day before), and analyze every month whether I’m hitting my targets. Constant reminders will make me more aware, therefore will make me more likely to take action.

Watching that video of “People are Awesome”, I realized, I need to be awesome! I need to be fucking awesome and kick ass!!! Being in full control of your body is one of the most wonderful things you can experience. I really wanna learn to do a backflip, some sick breakdancing moves, and literally fly this year! Plus I really wanna go overseas, I’m sick of being in Japan. Its time to make some money for real!

Game Plan 2013

System: The Top-Down Method

• Most important priority goes at top, and then lesser ones go down.
• Focus on the most important priority – once that is completed, and ONLY if that is completed, you move on to other activities. The top activity is the MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE. You forgo and ditch everything and anything else for that top priority.

Priorities for 2013

1. Sleep - at least 8hrs a night but aim for 9~10hrs. Be in bed before 10:45pm, and sleep by 11pm.
   Sleeping between 8~10hrs every night, and between the times of 10PM~5AM is the most important thing in the world for me. Thats what sets up my day, and thats what makes me feel alive and energetic. Its what gives me the sense of self-control that’ll help me take on the world. No matter if a girl wants to come and rape me, a friend wants to come and sleep over, or I have some homework to do, or have to eat, or ANYTHING – DROP AND IGNORE EVERYTHING AND GO TO SLEEP. In the most severe cases, sleep less, but ALWAYS sleep before 11pm.

2. Football and Physical Body – train and invest in building my body for at least 4hrs a day
   The reason I’m doing what I’m doing now, my purpose of my life, is becoming a better football player, and mastering my physical body. That involves going to training early to warm up and kick the ball, giving 120% to every training session, doing some extra training and going to the gym every day to build on what I’m lacking, watching football matches to learn more about the game and become a better player, and to feed myself the nutrients required for me to grow. That means eating 200grams of protein every single day, and cooking some world-class post-training meals every day to take the school.
3. Successful Social Entrepreneur - invest time every day to build a successful brand
   That brand is ME. And the purpose is to study, learn, and become a better thinker, as well as to earn a fuckload of money for sexy mansions, ferrari’s, and models. There’s many ways I can build that brand and it all involves some good habits. Ideas include: creating football training videos, becoming a YouTube star in Japan (so girls come jumping into my cockles!), building my current business to the best level I can (from 1000 views/day to 3000/views for more sales and becoming an official dealer for more profits!), creating a website to help men conquer their penises, starting a supplement company, etc. The important thing is to CHOOSE ONE THEME – GIVE IT A SPECIFIC TIME-FRAME – EVERY SINGLE DAY BUILD THAT BRAND.
4. Fun Social Guy! – sarge and push my character around friends to keep my fun and crazy vibe!
   I love the fun kid that resides inside of me who can make people smile, laugh, and I love crushing their limiting beliefs by being an example of defying the superficial rules and principles people create to make the world more boring. I wanna complete the Stylelife Challenge – something I’ve tried completing for at least 2yrs now. And I wanna be consistently talking to people x6~7 days a week. To see a hot girl and commenting on her cool accessory takes 5 seconds, if you talk to 10 every day, thats a minutes’ investment for a hot wet young and tasty punani every single week! I’ll try not to call it “sarging” anymore.
   Plus on a side-note, 40~50% of the girls I talk to needs to be munchkins. I wanna f-close at least 10 munchkins this year – 1 every month would bring me youth and good fortune. I’ll be 27 next year but I need to look 20. So lots of sleep, moisturizers, young fashion, a cap, and a fun youthful vibe will help attract young punani!

10 Things I Delivered in 2012

If you’re like me who wants the best of both worlds – to grow and progress with pressure and pain to achieve goals, and to appreciate every moment and celebrate the victory – you need to constantly layout and analyze your life.

Top 10 Things I delivered in 2012

1. Football: March of this year, 3 weeks before commencement, I decided to enter a place where I can play the sport I love – football – x6 days a week. Had to convince my parents, ignore my peers, and give up boxing. It wasn’t entirely how I expected it to be, but I’m enjoying my time playing.
2. PUA: Getting dates with girls after the number close and bouncing them comes so easily and naturally. I’m feeling more content with my PUA. Plus I met some Japanese PUA’s whose advice and example eliminated my limiting belief about PUA and fucking women.
3. Business: My business has been consistently earning more than 1k per month.
4. Fashion: I’m dressing so much better and starting to understand all the coordinations in my heart by going to bookstores and studying/taking photos for hours! I’ve made a good habit of constantly studying fashion too!
5. Consistency: Never in my entire life have I gone to school without being late, consistently attending without missing a day. But after joining the school and appreciating the pressure of having my head shaved off, I’ve been at least 30minutes early to school, and haven’t missed training.
6. Friendship: I’ve made good friends I can see every single day – something I really wanted to be a part of my life – constant friends I see daily. Yama, Masaji, Doi, Fuji – all teammates, friends whom I enjoy spending time with. And my dorm friends too.
7. Physical Strength: I’m stronger than ever in my entire life. I can lift heavier, and run much more. All the hard killer training’s made me mentally tougher too.
8. Porn-Star: Something every man dreams of – becoming a porno star and fucking hot blondies. I’m the Japanese version of that male hero figure. Ended up taking 8~9 shootings. It was a fun experience, yet its changed my perception of women, and sex for a while.
9. Personality: I’ve become more of a team-player than a complete individualist I’ve been for my entire life. Adjusting to other people, caring about the team, and being more responsible for I am in a team – are some of the things I’ve started to incorporate.
10. Escaped: My destructive relationship with my whore ex-gf. I could finally move on and not care about her, and realize the unlimited number of girls out there. But thinking back, it was one of the most wonderful relationships I’ve had, and I treasure every moment I had with her. Just should have escaped a little earlier before things got ugly…

Being in denial is one of the things that deter us from growing. Massive pain and pressure is required for growth, therefore…

Top 10 Failures of 2012

1. PUA: I imagined having sex with a different girl every single week. At the very least 20 F-Closes in a single year. Fuck buddies with girls at my dorm. And having 3-somes. Munchkin, munchkin, and more munchkins! But for fuck sake, I fucked 2 new girls this year. Massive disappointment. Spending hours and hours in field, I end up fucking 2 girls who are both UGLY AS FUCK! I hate myself for it. Thinking about the girls whom I could have fucked had I played things better…it makes me feel like shit. Total failure in this area for sure…I need to fix things up and be brave, never fear the pain of rejection, and forget all the limiting beliefs I have.
2. Football: To be honest, I’ve only grow a fucking minute tiny bit. Injuries, horrible lifestyle, and lack of motivation led to minimal growth. I wasted at least 3 months in rehab through injuries I could have prevented had I been a little smarter. I’m a fucking dumbass. Why the fuck did I join this school if I’m not giving 120%? Plus I’ve become fearful of making mistakes. Fearful of keeping the ball and dribbling. Have I really become a better player? I haven’t even appeared in a single match…its fucked up.
3. Speed: I’ve become so much slower. I feel so slow when I’m sprinting, I can’t run past a player like I could in the past…I feel like shit…I gotta do some specific speed training and regain that speed and dynamic power I once had…
4. Personality: Outside of the pressure of my team and my coach, I’m as lazy as I’ve always been – perhaps the worst in my entire life. I don’t have the motivation to do anything. I sleep all day on the weekends because I don’t wanna get up, and I feel deactivated. Dead. Lazy. Fucked. I haven’t become independent at all, I’ve only become afraid.
5. Money and Business: My goal and intention was to start a new business in 2012 and start earning big bucks by the end of it, enough to be completely independent, get a place of my own, and rock the world. I’m as broke as ever, without my parents’ help, I’d be remote and useless. I’ve probably spent less than 10hrs this year helping grow my current business, and approximately 100hrs of procrastination trying to start my new one….not much luck there.
6. Friendship: Luckily I’ve made 1 really close friend whom I can open up to and be honest, but I haven’t made a single effort to make friends, plus unfortunately I don’t trust any of them. I wouldn’t share any of my stories with them because they’d judge, and be jealous. I wouldn’t even call most of them friends. They’re my teammates, but not friends.
7. Sleep Habits: Even had I not achieved anything, at the very least I wanted to fix my sleeping habits. To sleep early and wake up early, to live a healthy and proactive lifestyle. But I haven’t managed to achieve this even 4 days in a row. I’m a badly disciplined, lazy ass punk loser…I seriously need to maintain this part of life or else I’m gonna get older faster, go bald, lose my skin tone, play worse on the pitch, get injured, lose my sex drive, get depressed, fuck no girls, and hate life.
8. Girlfriend: I wanted a really hot girlfriend whom I could constantly fuck the shit out of. I fucked 2 girls, one 3.5, and a 5.5. And I call myself a PUA…HA HA HA.
9. Grown Older: I feel so much older by the year, and I feel its growing on me exponentially. If its an variable outside of my control, I wouldn’t complain. But it is. Youth is a mindset. Maintaining it is about lifestyle. And all is within my control.
10. Brain Meltdown: I’m definitely slower at processing things, and my nervous system’s slown down. I can feel it clearly. I’m feeling more and more brain-dead by the day. Because all I do is head the ball, and I don’t do any studies at all. Given the brain declines every single day, I’m doing nothing to help reverse it, or learn while my brain is at least a little young. I’m gonna develop Alzheimers by age 40 if I don’t start putting stuff into my brain.

Ideas, Random Thoughts, and Game Plan for 2013

December 31st 2012 here in Tokyo. Less than 24hrs until 2013 and I’m up late eating rice crackers wandering about my theme for 2013. I definitely wanna take PUA to the next level – things are on an upward spiral and I’m getting better at game – or shall I say, I’m unrevealing the possibilites. I’ve placed all sorts of limitations in PUA and due to that, I’ve missed out on at least 10 F-closes and Blow Jobs – I’m certain.

Top 6 PUA Limiting Beliefs and Solutions

1. You need to get to know her ENOUGH (dates, cafe’s, and shit) to fuck her
   In the past month, I’ve mingled with guys in Japan who have sex with 3 girls in a single day with street pickup. Some bounce them to a hotel within 5minutes of meeting them.
2. You have to D2 her for sex – same night lays is only for slutty girls
   Girls are emotional creatures – NEVER FORGET THAT. And timing is everything. Timing has little to do with how long you’ve known her. There’s losers out there (like me in the past) who can’t even talk to the girl he’s been into for 24months! As long as she’s emotional enough and you use elements such as ones from the book Influence (especially the scarcity principle), same night lays are ALWAYS a possibility.
3. Having sex with Munchkins is hard because they’re flaky
   Munchkins are perhaps the easiest pickup targets around. They don’t have much elements to judge you by apart from your looks. So as long as you look sharp, clean, and safe – they’d be much easier than judgmental dirty late 20′s whores who is pessimistic about life. Plus they’re much easier to become emotional once they trust you.
4. I can’t fuck the girl because I don’t live around here, and I can’t bounce her to a love hotel because she’ll say “no”
   Haha…fuck…how many girls did I miss out on fucking because of this stupid little belief…let me count…at the very least 10 women! lol.
   - Tubu 7.5 – went to the park and tried to kiss her, she showed resistance (have BF), made her emotional and kissed her, but logistically no place to fuck, so I gave up, held hands and took her to the station.
   - Unknown 7.5 – munchkin I genuinely opened to ask for directions when I was working at a town I didn’t know. She stayed there and looked interested but I told her goodbye because I felt awkward for no cafe’s around.
   - Shoko 8.5 – D2 kissed at the park, and I asked her to go to the hotel with me, she said no, and I gave up
   - Tsukina 6.5 – She was waiting for a friend so I bounced her to Karaoke for 30minutes. And then left 30minutes later after 3-4 songs…
   - Sumire 6.5 – D2 with munchkin. Bounced her to manga kissa and fingered her. I felt awkward and left the manga kissa without her making me feel guud.
   Solution below…..
5. You have to act high value to get her to like you…
   Fuck you. By acting a little weak and vulnerable, women with their instinctual nurturing personality will look after you and open up to you. Acting all high value makes you look like a prick, so I like to switch it up. Be strong at times, be funny, be happy, be emotional, be weak – these waves are what creates emotions that’ll help create rapport with the women.

6. You have to open direct…indirect…semi-direct…in English…in Japanese
   People worrying about shit like this is novice PUA’s and I’m not falling into that category. It really doesn’t matter much what you open with – the important thing is your Vibe (/motivation), Looks, and the Personality you portray. For me, everything’s worked just as well. Especially after switching to Japanese at the start of November, I’ve been doing so much better. Direct works wonders, so does indirect these past few days.

Point 4 Limiting Belief:

Yes – there’s an uncountable number of women I failed to fuck because of my limiting beliefs. Some things I created in my head due to things I learned from other PUA’s, what I created in my head, and so on. There are no boundaries to what you can or cannot do with PUA. Thats very important. In this day in age, there ain’t no limiting beliefs! There’s plenty of Handicap toilets for a quick release, and here in Tokyo, there’s Karaoke’s and Manga Cafe’s. With Tubula, I could have bounced to the manga cafe for the kiss-close and also gotten an extra blow job – and fucked her there. No problem, there was a Manga Cafe in Harajuku FFS! With the Unknown girl, I could have bounced to the park for an hour and talked, then told her I wanna “look at the town from a high venue” – then bounce her to a staircase of an apartment building and fucked her there. With Tsukina, she only had 30minutes – I could have taken advantage of the time limit and bounced to a Manga Cafe and used the emotional sadness technique (Its such a miracle we met, right timing/right place, but I probably won’t see you again, isn’t it sad?) – and then kissed and fucked her for 10minutes. With Sumire, I should have told her to suck my dick knowing that now I’m really never gonna see her again.

Another point is that D1 fucks are probably easier in theory than getting a D2. A lot of girls are so receptive and open to giving their numbers on D1, but are reluctant to even reply to my mail or meet me for a D2. With those flaky ass girls, the best solution is to fuck them on that day. And forget about asking logistics, FORCE LOGISTICS! Even beg if you have to FFS! “C’mon lets catch some drinks for 5minutes! Only 5 minutes of your fucking life, its not gonna kill you!” – and if she’s not willing to spend 5 minutes with you for a quick bounce, that shows her level of interest. You can still D2 her but eh, fuck that shit.

Thats what I learned from Japanese PUA’s – that ANYTHING IS POSSIBLE and FUCKING 3 GIRLS IN A DAY IS STANDARD PROCEDURE.

Munching Munchkins

I’d like to dedicate 2013 to munching munchkins. And for starters, this article is fantastic:

http://www.h-ken.net/txt/0713/

A guy who’s in his 30′s now who used to open munchkins, bounce them to a park, talk for a while, and bounce to the top floor staircase of an apartment building for a blow job. Just shows the possibilities out there.

And one element he uses for the KC -> beyond is the: “Scarcity Principle”. I give it the “Instantly Sentimental” line.

“I just met you today, and its really random in a cool way that we’re talking like this. But its really sad that after we say goodbye, we’ll be strangers again…I was just here in this station by odd chance, and we’ll probably never meet…its really sad isn’t it…”

Then the girl gets sentimental all of a sudden and feels/says: “I really don’t want this to be the last”, “I don’t wanna lose you”, “I feel really sad…”

Then this guy says: “Can I hold your hands?” – and then kisses her. What a fucking hypnotist  He says “hold hands” but goes for a kiss!!! FUCK – thats actually a really amazing technique. “Lets eat some ice-cream – then bounce her to your station” – ask for something small – and make her accept it – then act upon something bigger assuming she’s accepted it.  He then proceeds to get her to suck his cock almost every single time. Damn…I bet munchkins have a hard time reversing their emotional state once they enter into it. But he doesn’t touch the punani, he makes her touch his penis and suck it first. Smart!!! And I’ve also realized now: “MAKING THE GIRL SUCK YOUR COCK IS EASIER THAN YOU FINGERING HER”. Quite simply because she’s entering your property, instead of you breaking into hers which violates her personal space. But she’s very much up to violating yours (penis). LOL.

Whats 2013 gonna be about?

This month I started realizing how boring my life’s become. On the bright side I’ve been consistent and working hard to achieve one thing. But I’ve also become more fearful to change, to challenging myself, and testing the odds to live a better life. I want to recoup that part of me. To be consistent on good routine/habits. But to be consistent on pushing myself into new challenges. So what are some things I want to achieve?

• Become a YouTube star and get 10,000 subscribers this year – especially female fans – some who would even recognize me when I’m filming out in the streets! [By 2013]
• Become a master social artist by mastering the art and science of human dynamics – read, interact, and finish the stylelife challenge! [By 2013]
• Become a successful entrepreneur who can do business from anywhere across Japan or around the world with just a laptop – be able to build a stable career and live abundantly from it! [By June]
• Master my physical body and become a regular in my football team! Be strong enough to complete 25 pull-ups, and be fucking ripped, explosively fast, and an amazing football player! [By April]
• Have a place of my own, and design my home like a fucking Bali-style love-hotel with the best equipment, and style [By March].
• Get a fucking hot and awesome regular girlfriend who’s good enough to be my partner for life! Have her come to my place x2~3 times a week. Cook, go climbing, watch TV, have sex, and do stuff together. [by May]
• Fuck at least x10 Munchkins with their uniforms on! [by June]

These are some of the things I want…Now I need a proper game plan to achieve these things. But before that my eye lids and shutting down, i need some sleeepp…. zzzz…..

November 2012 Statistics

November 2012 Stats

• Pickup Days: 15
• Open: 168 sets
• NC: 26 numbers
• Bounces: x4 (Akemi 6.5, Peggy 8, Kanae 7, Yui 8.5)
• D2: x3 (Junna 7, Sumire 6.5, Chie 7.5)
• KC: x1 (Chie 7.5)

Infield details at:

http://puastealth.tumblr.com

Analysis

• My statistics are all-round much better than October 2012. Perhaps the best stats ever in my pickup career. But at the same time, its probably been the month with the most disappointments and frustrations. But the most happiness, and success. Which means I had to go through a lot of pain to get good results, I’m proud of myself
• The number of sets I opened has only increased by a bit, but the NC’s have immensely increased! I could have done better because I had the school festivals (I’m talking 100+ NC’s!), but I’m happy because I have more than I can handle currently (on constant call with 10girls, and 2~3 other girls I’m interested in).
• I’ve bounced a lot more girls because I was bounce-oriented in my pickup. Instead of the number, I went straight for the bounce – something I’ll continue in the future…(because when you bounce the girl, its more likely to get a D2, and go beyond than just the meet).
• Out of the dates and bounces, I feasibly could have F-closed x1~2 girls (Akemi, and Sumire). With Akemi she was visiting Tokyo, and I should have pushed to visit her hotel. With Sumire she let me finger her without any resistance, but i wasn’t willing to fuck at a Manga kissa.

Learning Points

1. Priority goes like this: Bounce > NC. Always bounce the set even for a little while!
2. For girls that I feel unlikely to F-Close on a D2/Bounce, DO NOT take it beyond their comfort zone on that day (unless they’re anything below a 7.5 which isn’t worth seeing for a D3). Wait until the next date. [mistake made with Chie 7.5, and Momoko 7]
3. For girls I really want to see, BOOK DATE OVER THE PHONE.
4. Direct in Japanese works wonders. Keep doing it and tell them about the “living abroad” thing AFTER opening.

Next Month: December 2012

1. Experiment with the GF-Close. Since I don’t live at home, bouncing to hotel without the “relationship” status may be difficult. Thats why in December, I’m going to ask the girl to be my beloved GF. Then try F-closing. I might end up with 3~4 girlfriends, but thats something I need to experience.
2. Invest some real effort into the girls I really want; Shoko 8.5, Yui 8.5, Peggy 8.0, Ayane 7.5, Chie 7.5, Sachi 7.5
3. KEEP SARGING: with the number of girls I”m handling now, I have absolutely no need to sarge. But thats exactly what will hurt my game! I’ll minimize sarging time and frequency, but at least every 3 days I will talk to women out in the public. Specifically: Mon, Thurs, Sun – these 3 days I will NO MATTER WHAT open sets. Every week I wanna aim to open 30sets, NC x5 cute girls, and Bounce x2.
4. Book-in x3 dates every week: (Mon/Wed/Thurs/Sat/Sun)

Lost

 

I’m kind of lost here. Help me out.

The pursuance of PUA has taken many hours of my life. I’ve let go of so many comittments and priorities due to PUA. I’ve let PUA control my life, not the other way around.

So then the question becomes, what should be the focus of our lives? I realize I used the word “should” instead of “is”. Should suggests we stick to social norms of what is right. God heavens how much I’ve changed in the past 6months. From a guy who wants an excited life full of constantly new discoveries, to a guy who wants more simplicity.

The sanity sinks in after every session of masturbation. Your penis goes down after ejaculation and thinking about sex is like 2hrs into an eat as much as you can gourmet buffet. Thinking of food makes you sick. Its not that important anymore. I’m using so much of my comittment on that build-up stage, for a mere 20minutes. We’re pretty smart eh?

It applies to everything in life though. To shoot a 30second commercial, professionals put 300hours, and a fuck load of money. A weekly 90minute football match requires 2hours of hard training every single day. So being in a relationship and having sex with the girl of your dreams require that amount of hours and investment. It sounds pretty rational to me.

But when it comes to the value of input, I’m really not sure anymore. I’m not really sure what I want in life. I see friends around me becoming successful, appearing on TV, and progressing forwards in life. Whereas I see myself stuck in this layer from childhood to adulthood. As most parents would put it, “when will you ever grow up?”

No, seriously. What the hell do I want…

I told myself in the past, if I don’t know what I want, I just gotta keep on doing the things I do until I figure it out. But its time to take a step back…

The beauty is, I have one thing I’ve promised myself to excel in. And thats football. My priority over everything else. Even though the pickup’s taking a big marginal cut over my football. Last week when I was fully infused into football, I was actually happy. I was hitting the gym every single day, cooking and eating a lot of chicken, hitting the sack at 11pm, and getting 7~8hours of good quality sleep.

Sure I wasn’t hitting the streets picking up quality women, nor going for a skydiving session. But I was happy with life. Content. Peaceful.

I’m a little less lost now.

Things are pretty simple.

1. Sleep early
2. Eat well
3. Focus on football over everything else. And if time allows, do the other stuff.

And if I can’t get myself to focus like today and yesterday, just stand up, breathe, relax, and write the stuff I need to do. And do it. As simple as that. Just do it no matter what. Control my own mind. Don’t let other desires sway me away from what I really need to do in my life.

As I post this, thats exactly what I’m going to do.